This year began with promise. I made vows to God about certain things: people I would cut out (except for in my prayer life), things I would not do anymore, things I would start doing more often. To be honest, I broke most of those vows already. And to God at that. I kept certain people out of my life this year, but I didn't pray for them. A few things I said I would not do anymore, I did THE SAME DAY I made that promise to God. And the only thing I've done more of, is workout.
Not Good.
But I know in the Bible there are discussions about accountability and holding one another accountable. And confessing your sins to one another. So that's what I'm doing. Whoever reads this will be one of the persons I am confessing to. I hope that some of you will do the same, find a person or two, and confess. That person can pray for you when you don't want to pray, that person can help push you when you don't want to be pushed.
I'm not sure why I went on that tangent, but I sure it was necessary.
In the past two weeks, things have happened that made me...uncomfortable. Not like wearing too-small clothes, but I've felt like I'm slacking. I'm shamming on God. And that's not good. There have been things that He's directed me to do, since LAST year, that I still haven't done. And, unfortunately, it's taken isolation or the temporary loss of things to push me back to Him. And it hurts.
So instead of the original liberty I had to do the things He asked of me, now I feel like my back is against the wall and that if I don't do what He asks, I may never get back to the wonderful things He has for me. And all of my being believes that is true. But the thing is, I should have always viewed mandates from God in that way. If I want to stay in His will and walk in the things of God, then I need to do what He asks and make it Priority Number One ALL the time.
I should've listened the first FIFTEEN times He told me something. But I didn't. And now He had to take (what I consider) drastic measures to get my attention.
So what has the Lord been dealing with me about that I have not listened? CONSISTENCY.
Everything He's said has boiled down to that. Consistency. Consistency in seeking Him. Consistency in Prayer. Consistency in making time for Family and Friends. Consistency in my word. Consistency in this BLOG! Look at the dates, you'll see what I mean.
So instead, some things had to be temporarily taken away for me to actually listen. He told me that if I really seek Him and complete the assignments He has for me, those things will be fully restored.
Thank you Lord. You are not a Man, You don't lie.
I am searching. I am digging. Deeper than I have ever before. It hurts because I have to dig out things that I buried very far, but I know it's for the best. God has a better plan in mind than I can ever conjure
"How gracious, relentless, is the father's love toward us...Oh majesty, I live to see you face and be transformed, into your image"
Israel & New Breed "I Will Search for You"
No comments:
Post a Comment